It’s early morning Christmas eve, exactly one year ago today
that we received the news from Panama that we were finally pregnant. I remember
that morning as if it were yesterday, lying in bed at Daniels parents place in
Brooks and nervous about checking my phone for an email. It was either going to
be the best Christmas ever, or I was scared that we would have bad news and put
a damper on the entire holidays, luckily we all know what happened.
One year, I look back at the last year and honestly can’t
believe it, the ups and downs, the joy and pain, I don’t know how we found the
strength to get through it all, but here I sit, one year later and thankful for
how happy and fulfilled I really am.
If anyone ever tells you a child changes everything, you
fully don’t know what they mean until you have one. It is the most amazing joy
you will ever feel, your life does change, you stop caring about yourself and
what your needs are, and everything thing in your being is focused on your
child.
I look back on our journey and cant help getting emotional,
both Daniel and I would do it a thousand times over again to have Layton here
with us. He is perfect, and not just because I am his father, but he is the
perfect little guy for us. He smiles, laughs, almost always happy and calm. We
get many comments from people on how lucky we are to have him; we usually just
look at each other and smile. We know how lucky we are, and mention this to
each other one a daily basis.
Christmas will be different this year; the anticipation of
having Christmas with a baby in the house has made us even more excited and
happy. All our family is coming up to spend it here at our place, the house
will be filled with people and laughter, exactly what we had pictured when we
started this entire journey.
Layton has shown us what Christmas really means, he is the
biggest present we could have asked for or ever received in life.
Merry Christmas to everyone who has helped us, followed us,
or even lent support. Too many people to mention but from Daniel, Layton and me
I hope everyone has a great Christmas and an even better New Year…. I know we
will!
